The Irony of Friends

I've decided;
life should come with an instruction manual.

hahaha some would say that takes the fun away from learning as you go, but from where im standing...it would make things a whole lot easier =)

im not a bad person, i know i have bad points, but then, who doesn't? if people show me that they are worth it, i have all the time in the world for them. take R for example, shes annoyed just about everyone i know, but i keep going back to her. i dont know y. there is something about her.
ha! that makes me sound like im dating her....hardly....shes far too....loud. lol.
not to mention my bf....

the latest saga? goes something like this..........

as my friends and family know [and are probably far too aware of...] ive been ill recently [big "awwww" everyone...] and ive been asking for company because everyone seems to be far too busy to be comforting lol. the other day R cancelled on me, saying that she couldnt be bothered to come see me because it was cold and she was snug at home.
ok, not very fair i know, but i was too bust feeling sorry for myself to do much about it.
that was last week
then, just today, she cancelled again. going round hers was the only escape from wintery glumness that is home at the moment. no offence to Mum or C, but its boring here. but Mum hates R so there is no way i would be allowed round to see her out of the blue, as far as people know im still not tlkin to R unless i have to, not after last time [story for another day methinks]
so i asked her to come and give me an excuse, but guess what......she cancelled again =(

o look, and now another friend is trying to do something stupid that i warned them not to and thinks it will be ok to come running to me again when it goes wrong.

i think im going to leave it there before i start ranting like a madman

[that would make a change...]